My moment that shifted my life
For the past 56 years, I have been sleepwalking through life.
I always was choosing my words carefully before I spoke to please others. I had so much self doubt about what I had to say. I robbed myself of joy because I hesitated and didn’t say what I wanted to say, for YEARS! And if I did get the courage to say what I wanted, I usually got made fun of or worse yet, got yelled at.
It felt like I was brainwashed and not knowing it.
I also was an empath who constantly consumed the negative energies and internalized those feelings within myself.
This caused a lot of drama in the family.
Early this January, I went to a 5-day workshop retreat just north of San Francisco, CA.
Within 2 hours of getting to California, I received a call from my company manager that they needed me to return home ASAP.
Somehow at that moment, I felt the urge that I needed to attend the workshop.
After, dealing with this over the phone with multiple friends and family for the rest of that day and the morning of the next day before I left for the retreat at noon, I made the decision to unplug from the world with only contacting my daughters once a day with a check in text.
That was truly one of the hardest things I have done but my intuition was telling me loud and clear that this was what I needed and I couldn’t look back.
I got to the retreat center and felt completely at home. It is a beautiful retreat center on the cliff of Big Sur and as soon as I heard the ocean waves splashing against the rocks, I felt so much bliss that I knew I was in the right place for me!
I checked in and went to my room and met my roommate, who I didn’t know and she was an angel from heaven. We are still in touch and I am happy to call her one of my best friends. We were meant to stay together.
We went to the first session and met 28 other like minded people from all over the world and different cultures, men and women, and ages ranging from 24 to 71.
The next 5 days was the best experience of my life. I learned so much about myself and also learned I wanted to help people in a way that I had never done before. I knew I had a purpose in life before but I didn’t know what it was until then.
When I returned home after the retreat, I felt I was a brand new person. I felt I was coming into who I really was and not who I thought I was supposed to be by other people’s decisions or expectations.
I still had to deal with the very big issue that happened back home and also we had an unexpected death in my family.
Everything that was happening around me somehow didn’t trigger any anger or negative emotions or resentments. I became an observer and listened to others discuss the problems they were facing.
That’s when I became more clear that all the life experiences I have been through, they are there to serve my ultimate life purpose – to become a Life Coach and helps others to live a better life.